Depression has finally started to set in...I think that I have internally accepted the fact that you are gone. Something inside clicked...finally. You and I will never be.
I dont know how I hold back the tears, sometimes I feel that I cant, but I have to.
Someone told me, you have to stop, you have to stop NOW ...this is too much...he probably doesnt even remember you, think of you...he is living his life the same way he did before you walked into it...you were nothing to him, your love was nothing to him. You made and left no impressions in his life....
Are they right? ...the truth is...deep down inside, I think they are. I believe they are...I am nothing to you..I was nothing to you...but alas...you never lied. I have to give you that...you never lied. You always told me ...it couldnt be...and thus it wont.
So while you continue to live your life, hapily, the same as you did before we met...I will pick up my pieces...grab the little flash light you left me with ...and continue my journey one breath, one step and one day at a time...
I cant and wont knock on your door again, I cant and wont be JUST your friend,....because I love you....
...chelitta
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