Update and other nothings...

*sigh*...

Yes, thats how I started this post, with a big sigh... why? Well because there isn't really much to update on, but I feel like writing but I don't feel like writing erotica. Which has been the case for several days.. so I have had to just give up on it ... for now. It's hard to

The kiddo is doing well. Her school participates in an Art4school program and so, she has discovered how much she likes it. One of her art pieces was/is on display at City Hall in Mtn. View.

She is also finally talking. Though it takes her a little bit, but she starts talking far more rapidly than before... it surprised me that she spoke to a new girl in her class and instantly became her friend.  Although a few days later she was in trouble for hitting that same girl, they are now best friends.  We had a long talk with her. Hopefully its a one time experience.

We took a short trip to Tahoe, and that was just depressing. The lake is drying up, and there was no snow, at all. Very sad, Just 5yrs ago the lake was at its normal levels, now it just looks like a pond. Other than that, kiddo has been fine, growing like a weed. .. Its unbelievable how fast time has gone by.

Regarding my weight... well it continues to be an on going battle. I was exercising regularly up until I became sick with a terrible case of Pneumonia, strep throat and flu all combined into one. Since then I havent been myself and haven't been going to gym, its been 3 weeks, sadly. I am still eating low carb. but as anyone with PCOS knows if you are not actively losing, you are gaining. So I may end up having Bypass surgery after all.

Romantically.. same shit, different year. I have dropped many people out of my life because for some reason 2014 was the year of realization. Many people that claimed wanted to be in my life and accept me, proved otherwise, so as hard as it was I ended all communication... I think thats why my sadness has increased the past month or so. Before I had those every once in a while little ego boosters of someones presence in my life, those "I want to see you", "I like you but you dont like me", "Come with me to my house in..", there is no more of that, no more random emails saying they wanted to be with me... though I must admit that they were annoying to me at the time, I didnt realize how good they were for my already shattered ego. However, I much rather feel sad than have people in my life that are not going to be there when I will really need them to be.

I need companionship. I need support, not financially but emotional and moral support. There is only so much friends can provide, and even then my friend count is down to 2, yes 2, unfortunately they both live far from me and seeing them is a treat, at least for me, maybe for them it is a blessing, sometimes I feel like I overwhelm them with my problems and start pulling away from them. So who knows .. by the end of this year I may not have any friends left, hopefully not though, but I realize if that occurs it is most likely my fault.

I have also moved in with my parents once again. To save up and hopefully find a place of my own again. Though home ownership is a long way to go that is my goal, I dont like the idea of kiddo growing up having to move every time rent goes up.

Well thats basically it, .. i end this post like I started it, with a great big *sigh*... we will see when I post again.. until then.. stay happy....

... chelitta