Never again, will tiny hands caress my stomach from the inside, Never again will tiny feet move my insides and kick me reminding me of their growth. Never again will I cry when I hear the first heartbeats of a human being.
Never will I buy endless amounts of tests to be completely sure that there was something growing inside me, never will I see my waist expand to its maximum, yet feel so good about it.
Never will I feel pain with such honor and joy, never will I enjoy being poked, measured, checked like I did that day...never will I wait anxiously for a cry and laugh nervously upon hearing it....never again.
Never will I hold someone so tiny between my arms and know they are mine forever...never will someone need me like they do during that time.
Never will I cry upon seeing that first smile, never will I cry when hearing a tiny voice call me mami...
No, never again will I bare a child....never again ..
I will never be someones mother again, I will never have that first birthday party again, I will never help anyone walk for the first timem eat for the first time and cradle their sleep....
and for this ...my child....I will never again...take you for granted.....
....chelitta
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