Goodbye

I have decided...and there is nothing that will make me turn back. I have given it much thought more than it really had to.

The decision saddens me, because it only shows my weakness in character, it shows where I stand as a person, as a human, as a woman.

To think I am giving up 'happiness' for something I do not possess, for something I do not believe in, for something that does not exist.

I am giving it up because, it is not in my nature to sell my smiles, my time, my soul, my heart.

Thus I say goodbye, to a life of luxury, to endless trips wherever my heart desires. I am saying good bye to the best education anywhere in the world for my child, I am saying good bye to not having to work again. I am saying good bye to you, as I know that after this I will never know of you, but as always and as I did that night..I wish you the best...because you deserve it...

Thank you kind sir, for considering me for the position of companion, thank you for 10 years ago, thank you for the past 2 months, thank you for taking a chance...I apologize for my refusal...

I am turning you and all the wonderful things you offer me and my child down....and trading it in for a broken heart...

.....chelitta