Maybe

El sentimiento profundo q te tuve (el cual nunca llegastes a ver ni entender), poco a poco se desaparece entre las nubes, hasta llegar al infinito, donde ese supuesto "amor" solo era un maldito error...

con todo el dolor que eso implique...pero asi tiene que ser....

The preceding was a post that one of my friends shared..from her own experience...it hit home...too much..

Why? because I dont think you have a complete understanding of what I feel ..because neither do I. It has been a very tough couple days...made a very hard decision, and trying to tell my brain to stop thinking of you.

But like my friends statement says..little by little you are becoming part of my past, and it is hurting...only because "it" was never given a chance.  As it started blossoming its branches were trimmed, cut, the flowers of hope and illusion never even became buds.

Was it for the best? Maybe, but the truth is that  living with what ifs is the hardest part of this. What if, it would have been given a chance? What if we would have let "it" blossom? This is something we will never know...I understand that for you it does not matter...that "this" means nothing to you...I know that in your mind "it" wasnt meant to be lived the way it would have to be...if it would have become a reality...

So maybe, it would have been an error, maybe at the end the fruits of it would have been been left to rot, and nothing good would have come out of it ....maybe, you and I were never supposed to be togther, maybe you are just an illusion...maybe you were just put into my life to keep a space warm for someone that does want and isnt afraid to show me thats "it" does exist...that wants to let the tree of love blossom, that rather than trim its branches completely, he shapes them, nourishes them, so that from the beginning they grow strong...making it everlasting and beautiful....

Maybe...or maybe not.....we will never know...or will we?

...chelitta