Pretends...

She wakes up in the morning...takes a shower...barely looks at herself in the mirror...
She hates what she sees when she does, she hates to see the failure in her eyes.
She looks down and sees the scars life has left her.
Her heart is no longer able to take in anymore of what life is throwing at her.

She gets up, and tells herself to make it through the day. Just that day, not to worry  about tomorrow, it doesnt exist.

She takes a deep breath and pretends. Pretends she's happy. Pretends there is no pain in her heart. That everything is OK. She pretends she has everything straight, that her stomach doesn't hurt, that her head isnt going to explode. She puts a smile on her face. If anyone bothered looking into her eyes, into her soul, they would see it is just a lie. 

She pretends his words dont hurt. 

She pretends her words dont hurt. 

She pretends her heart doesnt feel.

She pretends their words havent taken away what little was left.

She has decided to walk away from everything. There is no point in staying where she isnt wanted, appreciated. Where she is taken for granted. This world isnt for her. She will create her own. Just herself and possibly her daughter. 

She will continue her life as if nothing is going on. She will no longer tell anyone of her problems, her sorrow, her self hate.

To the world she will be fine...while she just pretends....