So...today will be hard it will be one of those days where I wont feel as empowered as I have felt these passed 3 days...not because I will barely sleep...and wont see my daughter the whole day...but because..I am going with my friend, Paola, to a wedding dress appt.
Dont get me wrong..I am very happy that she is happy and in love and all that good stuff. I just wish that she wouldnt have asked ME to go with her...not right now at least....and I did tell her no. I gave her my reasons..I said I am not ready to live that exp. again. I am not ready to handle the fact that maybe i will never again be that person looking at wedding dresses..that maybe truly love was not meant for me...I AM NOT READY TO HANDLE THAT. You are the only one that will tell me the truth ...she said..and with that she convinced me.
I am restructuring my life...i am getting healthy...finishing what I started years ago...but i must say my love life....i have no idea what the hell do do with that...and I better stop here...because I am not about to fall into that hole again....
....chelitta
but then there is the lunch thing with her friend...:S
but then there is the lunch thing with her friend...:S
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