My Stalker

I have a stalker...well sort of ...

For a little over a year..I have a kind of recurrent dream ...I say kind of because its  not the same dream each time,  but it does involve the same person and the same "situation".

I am walking, either in a mall, on the street, at a park or whatever ...and I'm being followed, by a man, which despite the numerous times I have had the "dream" I have never seen his face...until last night...well kind of...

In my dream when I feel him following me I turn around, and suddenly he disappears...funny cuz I have another recurrent dream where he appears but he is not following me...we are both in a conference room..I am at the head of the table and he is at the other end...regardless I still cant see his face...but I know it's him...

Last night...it was different and I don't know why..I was walking...it was like in a building, like office buildings...I felt him following...I turned around and there he was, I started walking towards him ...but instead of disappearing, he turned around and started walking...I was now the one following him..for some reason I felt a great sadness seeing him walk away from me...I shouted ...WAIT!! ...please stop...and surprisingly he stopped...I couldn't believe it ...I was thinking I was finally going to see his face...to know who it was that has been following me for the past year and a half....and then ...I caught up to him...and I don't know what the universe is trying to tell me ...but he turned around and instead of seeing his face ...his eyes locked with mine ...and I was like sucked in to this "trance" type thing...and all I could manage to say ...was "don't leave me"...and then ...he took my hands...and as I started to look down ...he kissed me ...

I don't know if that was supposed to happen ...if we broke the rules...but as soon as he kissed me ...I woke up ...

I never saw his face, I only saw his eyes...and felt his hands and his kiss...and I remember tears rolling down my face...I don't know what will happen if I ever "see" him again...I don't know why he waited this long to make "contact"...I don't know if he was even supposed to...

Honestly...I don't even know if the dream is a dream ....

I have a stalker ...I don't fear him ...I feel he is not there to harm me ...I still don't know his purpose..if in fact he has one...or maybe ...just maybe ...it is ...just a dream ...

...chelitta