Still not happening

Well its been a while for this blog too...



Well...lets see...

Last time I think I was broken hearted and what not...well ..I still am ...LMAO!

It's gotten better though, I don't wake up thinking about what couldn't be nor fall asleep thinking about it. There are some days, that I do, but each day its less and less. I am no longer eager to jump into a relationship, yeah I realize that some days I wish I could just get laid and that's it, but then I realize that its not really what I need, even if I really do NEED it...teehee.

I feel lonely and some days I wish I had someone that would just hold me and tell me everything will be ok, specially right now when there are days that I feel worthless. However, I don't want to rush into anything and I am really scared. My heart is still broken, and I don't want to break it any further. So for now ...I'm not looking or wanting anything, if something happens it will, if it doesn't oh well, I had fun when I needed to.

Work is ok...I still pretty much hate it, but for now, its keeping me in this apartment and paying a little bit of the bills...

Well thats it for now...nothing much is going on in my personal life...so I dunno when I will be back here...but thanx for reading :)

...chelitta